She Deserve That

From the first sight the first meet the first greet it was all class and ladylike tendencies.

The words you spoke was so intelligent full of knowledge and wisdom lacking discrepancies.

Belief in another don't come easy by my way to indulge in a soul.

We live in a time where honest faces can be the biggest foes.

But your actions spoke louder than anything in the world could ever know.

Gaining the highest respect from me that will constantly infinitely grow.

Always will I humbly think of you never take you for granted or use you like a doormat.

Because being the woman that I see thus far you deserve that.

The way you carry yourself with class and grace like a lady and not some hoodrat.

I shall treat you like a queen and bestow on a golden throne cause you deserve that.

Always supporting me seeing the best in me even when I'm not at my fullest peak at best.

Which is why I shall work hard to the bone for the rest of my life to support you so you never have to want because you deserve that.

Always keeping a positive attitude even when I'm in a negative mood like a man that can't rest.

I shall listen to your wisdom prosper working towards a man of greatness because you deserve that.

Being that extra feeling to fill the empty space in my heart.

Let me be that strong hold you can depend on with the base to build on for a honest start.

Like the way you never required me to be that thug or made up swag nigga told by society where to stand.

But accepted my individual mind set of not following the masses or the mastas and being my own man.

Which is why when the time comes I shall get on one knee with the biggest ring at some place across the sea and intimately ask you to be my wife for all eternity.

And cherish love respect adore protect please devote humor inspire romance seduce motivate listen to and never take for granted like some weak stat.

Because in my eyes my heart and my soul your the woman that deserve that.
By Kolin E.

THE BLACK CONSUMER

I'm getting paid I got all the doe cake is what I bake dollars be my master.

And do whatever to get it the world not feeding me so what how I tax it.

I got Gucci Armani Prada a whole lot of useless bullshit to keep up my persona.

I work no doubt so its mine to do as I please, sometimes I'm behind on my bills, but oh well I got trees.

My credit is bad but sometimes good depending on who spending, if I get too off track I get that payday lending.

Then I owe more on top of some I'm not paying them fuckers, or if I'm the rich consumer I'll buy more useless bullshit to plunder.

And make people that laugh at me even more rich, as they point and look and say they spending to be on our level how sick.

We tell them what to buy to be like us and they do it, gotta love that dumb ass black consumer.

They want so badly to be, that all we have to do is put a high price tag on it and just see.

Watch them monkeys go and buy it, we spent 3 cent to make this shit, and they spend half they check to Nike it.

Gotta love a bafoon we put them in a position of less than mentally and they try to prove us wrong by buying from us consistently.

That damn black consumer please keep doing what ever to get them Benjamin's, a slave to the retail using that whip of survival and a goal of status to crush all opinions.

The black consumer a rich bigots consistent piggy bank, loving all them wanna be, accept me please, into the good life probates.
As the 1 percent sit back and say, let's get them used to having nothing and I promise, first chance them nuckle heads will rob, poison, hoe and kill to profit.

And bring all that soul sold cash back to us as we turn that old money to newest money and gross our power.

As we look down at you all as we chill in our corporate ran tower.

Just keep buying and buying and buying cause we depend on it thanks well spent.

Please dont buy land and property don't put back in the community or invest for retirement.

Please keep keeping them neighborhoods down dont let the fellow man gain closer to his crown.

Never give back but continue to destroy focus that mindset to drama over joy.

And above all we love the way you throw it in each others face of having thangs and treating the lesser as a bad stain.

Your doing a great job of keeping that money flowing, as that cycle of your motivation is how we keep that reign ongoing.

This is what THE MAN says and accomplish on a daily basis as our minds are tainted with a slavery tumor.

A bunch of yessa massa's laying claim to shit that ain't ours with no ownership competing to be the best black consumer.
By Kolin E.

Obstacles

Born into life written off by gender and skin complexion.

As a barrier of statistics state I won't live past 25 or a prison sentence.

Obstructions of the system go all out to hold me back.

Hurdles complicate my path to achieve as I jump over negativity attacks.

Drawbacks try to deter me from my rightful place on the throne.

Nibble away at my dream of a kingdom where I roam free in my soul.

Disadvantages try to conquer my army of inner faith.

As excuses spit on accountability lowering my self-esteem at the gate.

But the strength of me knows better at some point and awaken the drive.

And figure out at some point what it takes to be happy and survive.

I break through barriers dodged those obstructions and with a perfect form jump those hurdles with better strategies.

Use my drawbacks to make me wiser wake up my dreams and deal with my disadvantages.

Rebuilt my self-esteem and took ownership of my mistakes cause if life's a highway I'm the mack truck.

So now my story can be told I might have not lived perfect took a while to get it right had some stumbles but never gave up.
By Kolin E.

Shades of a woman

I have to say I love and admire that woman of shades.

With that ethnic transcendence of Afro centricity she is praised.

Taking me throughout a progressive enlightened journey.

When at her highest peak shines on life's stage and every bit of worthy.

She can make a man feel like Superman even if he was weak and stood only 2 feet tall.

Whatever boundaries to get to her side she would drive him to leap run or crawl.

Her power a power of unimaginary unexplainable unobtainable strength for wealth.

Her desire and drive unmatchable by any means of any species on the planet that's why she is Queen till death.

Her lips hips and thighs ,can daze a man into being hypnotized.

Her grace statue and intelligence should be applauded ,but goes unaccounted for or rewarded.

Her motherly embrace just takes the case.

Her skills with cooking food sends watering taste buds through the roof.

Her loving caring supportive ways never amaze me anymore but humbly expected.

Her recognition of common sense goes always respected.

So where is she my woman of shades so hard to find but do exist like that righteous brother do.

That oh so invisible culture that goes unnoticed but still stands true.

Over taken by unlikely posers of integrity.

They invited themselves into blackness with a for sale sign like jeopardy.

Living a lie for a lie driven by a lie just to die for a lie to make money to start all over and buy that lie again.

To the point when truth is introduced you believe an oppressors reality over a true friend.

So I say where my shades at I miss you I want you but feel unneeded and alone.

Pushed away for living righteous being different on my own.

But then I see one, there she is over there meeting all requirements so far I spot.

I approached her like the woman she is just to get turned away for being the thug I'm not.

Oh wait one finally at last oh dang she comparing me to her last man and the other man and her baby daddy again.

Just can't get around being more than just a friend.

Ok she's the one I just know this time it's different.

Oh Lord she wants to argue every 2 seconds it's difficult.

Here we go Ms. Independent well from the attitude it should be renamed Ms. Alone and resentment.

Awww man here comes the emotionally verbally abusive gotta get the last word in negative all the time bad body language female again.

Really have no time for your unsupportive showing no respect for a man dishonest belligerent ways in the end.

Oh great here comes the hoe that wants to be treated like the ultimate goddess.

So you post your ass all on the Internet do hoe stuff screw everybody but wants to be treated like my true princess that's mentally conscious.

Yeah right I'm screamin wear my shades at with my black fist up that's had enough of you posers thinking like penises.

Mislabeled misguided thinkers that's false representin my true black Venuses.

So now a woman covet her own self to be stronger than a man that it's attractive to one another worked like a job of employment.

To the point hatred of the black man has become a thing of laughter and enjoyment.

So that's where we are my lady in waiting of shades I have to find you through all this grey.

Lose some and win none till I cycle through the waist.

I know I will and we shall build be happy and live as an example of true black love.

My sister of many shades I shall patiently wait for on that high road above.
By Kolin E.

The Real Genocides

Masters of the old world from a time of slavery disconnect a people using status.

Put a section of slaves in a confined space while others get the in house apparatus.

So a mentality is born within a culture of have and have nots in strife.

But in a more dormant state because then freedom was life.

Fast forward a bit now rights is life so togetherness is the only option to reach that goal.

On paper its conquered now money is the toll.

Survival is the trick turned against a culture family gotta eat become a reason for the hustle.

All the while a planned propaganda to destroy the psyche hopes and dreams.

Empowered by rage while living a situation whatever or however that may be.

Suffering makes one not want to go back to being broke and hungry they'll do anything for stacks.

Run over step on kill push to side and walk right by in multiple laps.

Oppressors starved us out just to throw that bone of poison called drugs.

So now the neighborhood dope man is the new savior and greeted with hugs.

They told him the plan and he still made a deal with the devil.

So now we have become our own oppressors.

The new genocides don't wear a white face they possess white rocks on corner blocks trap houses in the hood.

Fight over territory they dont own and colors throwing up signs talking about what's good.

High five each other for hunting they own people down like animals as they scream.

Verbally abuse physically abuse sexually abuse our female queens.

The new genocides murdering education and knowledge.

A true nigga to the heart would rather sag be in the streets than college.

The new excuse is they dumb illiterate its all they can do.

I say who's fault is that but bet he can repeat a rap song or two.

The new genocide is the mentality which I will U-bomb from reality.

I will have enemies and angry misguided minds tell me off in anger.

But if you truly loved our people one would see the results of a lifestyle in danger.

Fuck thugs fuck drug dealers fuck hustlers getting over fuck ignorant women who make excuses for they tussle.

Fuck pimps fuck hoes spreading disease fuck sagging fuck skinny jeans.

Fuck your ignorance fuck your bed you made of nails covered by wealth.

Fuck you unconscious fake made up studio gangster rappers and your health.

Its a war of knowledge I will not be killed off because of your ignorant decisions.

Fuck your thought processes of thinking with no precision.

Fuck your new age black KKK genocide self mutilating ways in content.

Fuck your black on black genocide and all you represent.
Now Repent
By Kolin E.

SLAVE TO THE CYCLE

Do you know what slavery is in 2014 these days?

Is it mental physical financial influence from all ways?

Powered by the past overall control of the soul.

Implanted reasoning to keep a culture in a diabolical hold.

Over time a steady dose and repetition of ignorance.

Keeping the once oppressed people unvigorous.

This invention of control has now switched to auto pilot and took on a face of it's own.

While others sit back and relax gain power and watch the self destruction unfold.

A real life of repeating a reality show with numerous episodes.

Anger and issues drive the madness until it hit a brick wall and explodes.

Self mutilation self extermination self deviation with no self examination.

For self was taken away stripped and raped as in self knowing.

Self knowledge of race to where you came from to where your going.

Slave to the cycle of poverty in return becoming a slave to survival.

Now the better brother doing better than becomes the biggest rival.

The brother of unknowing out of hatred for himself is envious and becomes a nigga.

Recreated to glorify and boost his self-esteem for being anything to create them figures.

Look at that righteous man over there being all smart and shit who do he think he is.

Then the devil says let's bring him down and introduce this poison and you can have what's his.

For you can be that nigga and create more niggas on top of niggas with that same insight.

Destroy them and I can give you all the financial high lights.

Don't be a father or husband or leader get that paper instead.

Fuck many hoes destroy your kind and I'll make you a mortar with bread.

Make the black woman suffer and send her away for she is a problem and her strength I cannot sway.

But with the help of you I can have her to myself dilute her mind and send her away.

I'll only make her mentally stronger than you to the point she is only turned on by the likeness of herself.

Do this the devil said put that faith in things sure I'll imprison the majority of you but hey the rest is wealth.

So nigga we got a deal and thus the cycle is born.

Kids grow up fatherless and angry mothers get adorned.

Relations see him as the new real man and brother do right a non figure.

Guess you can say making a deal with the devil created the new real nigga.

The cycle of the new slave a cycle you will never recognize asleep.

Because they have so much pride invested that coma is for keeps.
By Kolin E.

INSATIABLE

THE WAY WE MET THE WAY WE VIBED THE WAY WE PROGRESSED WAS SO AT EASE.

NEVER KNEW THE DAY WOULD COME THAT A MILLION WAYS IS NOT ENOUGH TO KEEP YOU PLEASED.

IN THE BEGINNING I COULD HAVE SWORE I KNEW YOU INSIDE OUT.

FROM WHAT YOU LOVE TO WHAT YOU LIKE.

HOW YOU WANT IT WHEN ITS NEEDED WITH DEEP INSIGHT.

BUT NOW I COME TO WONDER IF I CAN EVER DO ANYTHING RIGHT.

WHILE EVERY LITTLE THING IS FOLLOWED BY CRITICISM AND FIGHTS.

I RUN A BUBBLE BATH FOR YOU AFTER WORK THE WATER TOO COLD.

I COOK A NICE DINNER AND DESERT AND WHAT'S ON THE MENU YOU SCOLD.

I OFFER AND GIVE YOU A MASSAGE I'M NOT IN THE RIGHT SPOTS.

JUST LIKE YOUR BACK OUR RELATIONSHIP IS FILLED WITH KNOTS.

I EVEN TAKE THE BIGGER STAND TO LEAVE CAUSE I'D RATHER SEE YOU HAPPY.

EVEN THEN HERE COMES THE ATTITUDE AND THE NO YOU NOT GETTING SNAPPY.

SO TELL ME WOMAN HOW DID WE GET HERE A COUPLE ONCE INSEPARABLE.

TO THIS MOMENT OF NOW WHERE ONE HALF IS TRYING AND THE OTHER INSATIABLE.
By KOLIN E.

Breaking Walls

We met on a Friday at noon I noticed you walking along the way in a parking lot of a clothing store.
Normally I second guess myself approaching a female on a whim but something about you intrigued me to know more.
So I did so like a gentleman and not a dog in heat.
With an excuse me followed by introduction and a I'm not a threat hear to compete.
But fulfill the curiosity of you energize the effort and want to know more.
And you let me do so as your mind opened up for my travels to explore.
And so the questions of the heart began to mold scroll and rumble.
Am I good enough is she lady enough can we try enough to make this work and stay humble.
Only the weight of time can tell but my love is on a different scale with many variables to take into consideration.
It's complex careful calculated detailed determined effective exotic fruitful grateful filled with passion and determination.
What can or do we share in compromise of all other.
As in what to do with things that don't meet our eye to eye can we learn to look over.
Am I me you see or some definition of a man that's constantly being tested on level standards.
Whereas my mind is made up for you to enter my world and soul to unfold my tandoms.
Walls we break each having our own as only time will tell who's are thicker and hurtfully covered.
But if a woman is worth it I declare to break bust climb and jack hammer that fucker till love is discovered.
Kolin E.

Making Fun of Me

I love me I truly do I swear which is why I can say these words with no care.
Like how my head shaped funny I mean really funny like special needs funny.
Chocolate covered M&M that didn't turn out right cone head with a milk dud spread funny.
But that's not it nope dont end there most think bald is my style but since 15 I been losing hair.
Cow licks I call em slurping back through time kinda like that knot at the back of my head blowing my mind.
And gotta keep it oiled and greased at least make it smooth cause lotion is my best friend on the move.
Without it my hands and feet be hurting for a scrape and you'd swear I was apart of a tribe of apes.
And to be honest my smile ain't all that perfect they chirping don't let me bite your ass them teeth leave em hurting.
People always ask me how are you or why are single on the scene but I always feel I'm in a relationship with drama and disease free Ms. Vaseline.
Although I try my moves might have the look of a rancher I guess on the floor you can call me a shoulder dancer.
I can't two step but I try to one and a half give some hip action and hump that ass.
Its cool all me and I love it all give me a million no's and I'll never fall.
Its all you see just me living to be which is why I have no problem making fun of me.
BY KOLIN E.

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I am the M.E. in team conquering on all levels to reach my dream.
I am a KING ruling over my soul, keeping the peasants of disparity in control.
I am functional when left hopeless still seeking that positive vibe remaining  focused.
I am romance even without the stone, feeling her up with love letting my heart unfold.
I am not perfect eventually fucking up here and there, but learning from it all makes my wisdom prepared.
I am intelligence in abundance still willing to learn, taking my knowledge to that higher level of concern.
I am a man paving my own way through the forest hacking down, the thick bush as I make my way to more solid ground.
I am black on the outside feel pain on the inside and bleed red so I'm a human being, all me all truth and all seeing.
I am all F's when it comes to the D, a fabulous freaky fantasy filled fossil of fucking fantastic forming fourgasms for free.
I am the one you hold on to if smart and never let go, cause recognition of humbleness and greatness can only be seen by one in possession of those.
I am truly free inside out around and unbound to society and its holds, staying away from the unrighteous negative foes.
I am Kolin and he is me all that I need to be in life externally , till my time is up and the most high calls me by his side I'll be me eternally  .
By Kolin E.